Get out of debt and help others

Hello I'm Gevy Camacho, 22 years old and an artist from philippines. As my title says I'm currently in a debt and I dont have any other options but to knock on your kind hearts right now. I'm really having a rough month and I don't know what to do anymore. Cancelled commissions, backed-out clients and 20% chance of painting sale . I'm working day till dawn and just getting 2 hours of sleep a day just to finish an artwork with a 0-20% of chance to sell. My body is at it's limit and can't accept anymore commissions. I want a rest, I want a human life. Some times I am thinking of other options to make big money desperately but in illegal way; selling kidneys, become a drug seller, and much worst is thinking to end this miserable life. But I have to think positively. I have family to take care of and a future ahead. Thank you for understanding, I am being honest here and promises to help other young artists keep their dream burning.