Debt Consolidation

Hi,

My name is Jason. My story goes back from my 20s. I've always been the type of person who would put other's first before me. This is how I came to be. I always believed that good will always do good to be great. I was always like this. This is how my grandmother raised me. Fortunately I became one of her favorites. Which never really mattered because the joy of seeing her happy around my company is what got me. To know that I am able to make a person happy and smile. Felt very warm and nice. I never seek validation and I keep it always to myself when a good deed is done because that's how it should be right? People being nice to other people. Of course, I'm not perfect there were days that I couldn't be nice, be nice to the homeless or the ones in need, but I always make it a habit to be nice as much I can. There's nothing wrong with not being able to give right? But maybe only in the context of my mind. Because I had to choose if I would be able to survive or give my last penny to the next person I see. When I do have extra, I always do make sure to extend help and even sometimes when I don't. Well, you could say I just don't do it all the time. Again, I'm not perfect.

I don't come from much. My family I would say is from the middle class. I was doing fine at first - in reference to my early 20s - and I would say pretty stupid. I got into bad relationships with a couple of bad decisions around my career - nothing illegal - that made me want to drown myself in my vices - no drugs of course-. I was the casually nice guy. The guy you can talk to for anything. It was nice, life was tough but was bearable.

Come to my late 20s, I started getting into the deep dark place called debt. This febt happened because I was too nice. Too nice and family oriented that even when it means having to give up my plans I still went ahead with it. The debt started slow, and it creeped up on me. For me to stay afloat, I had to get debt for myself. It was all going well and manageable. Even when bad decisions were made still.

Not until lately, where it got worse and worse and not manageable. Come to think of it, it all seems silly and hard to tell but right now, compared to myself I wish I could have been the stubborn person. I wish that I could have said no to my family and friends and significant other. Now I just want to get rid of it all and start anew. I believe in the concept of pay it forward and I know I'll do it. But now it's just different and difficult. I can't seem to fathom what's happening right now. You could say I want to end it all. I want to continue supporting the people around me. Helping them and giving a hand. I've worked hard all my life and I can't believe this is happening to me. Any help would be nice.

Thank you for reading through and I hope you have a great day.