Please help me get out of here

Hi everyone!
My name is "Ethan" I'm 15yrs old suffering from depression, stress, and anxiety. At a young age I already suffer from that kind of things because of the peoples around me. My parents (especially mom), are the reason why I tried doing suicide for more than 10times but I always fail and I wish I didn't. All I want is to leave our house save a little bit of money and get out of here. I'm really tired mentally and physically and from the moment I was born. I'm also underweight I can't eat good here my head always hurts cuz of stress. All I wish is for u guys to help me please get out of here I'm really really tired I can't do this anymore. This coming April is the deadline of my fundraising and I wish my goal is reached. If I don't get out of here I don't think you'll be able to see me again guys cause I'm really tired I'm so tired of everything. Any amount WILL HELP ME SUPER BIG!
I'm also a very smart kid consistent with honors student with medals, and many certificates. Means I'm really a good kid but I don't think I'm enough I'm also really insecure about my self. The last time I tried to do suicidal is last Christmas as a gift to my self I wanna end my suffering, I was standing in a 5th floor of the building at night crying looking at the sky feeling the sir on my hands saying my last goodbye. But I fail again! Because my friends called me crying not to do it. I don't wanna say more because maybe I'll cry but that's my prayer and wish guys to get out of here. THANKYOU SO MUCH and I wish I I'll be able to see you next month.