depression and coping up

hi everyone,

here is my story about trying to cope up with depression and stressfull situation.

Last year i was in a total good shape. Everything is working fine. Everything was going smoothly,everything is perfect. i have a good paying job, good career, no debts or liabilities, not until the month of June. it was my birth month.

i got scammed for almost 10000usd. i have invested all my savings and investment to this one business which is buy and sell of gold until the person supplying me no longer show up and have not delivered my items.

my world was shattered,broken into millions of pieces. everything that i have was in there so everything was gone. nothign's left. i fell into deep depression, anxiety, shame. i know i was a smart person so i couldnt understand how it happened.

i have attempted to take my life but maybe it wasnt my time yet or maybe He has other plan. for whatever it is i dont know. due to this ive lost my job my income stop and i ended up taking out loans to survive. this now throw me out through to hard situation as until now i am unable to get any job that would help me recuperate.

the bank already took my car and my mom who is already 78 yrs shoulder our expenses. other financial institution is already in my tail to file a civil case

i am hoping to get assistance so i can recover and for my credit historry not to be out into bad record.

i am humbly asking for financial assistance or anywork that could help me remotely. i am trying to be strong, trying to fight the same feeking i got when i first tried to kill myself. i am willing to also donate my kidney with a good price. i would want to give it for free but would only haopend if i die.

please anything that you can do to help would be much appreciated

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btw i live in phillipines i have also reach out to people that i have help hoping somebody would lend me a hand but i guess the saying is true you only have a value if they can get something from. friends and relatives none could ever help me this add to my anxiety questioning if i have been a bad person.

Another update for some reason being honest with what i have gone trhough put discrimination in this country. i have never harmed colleagues or any one from my previos company no attitude issues and i was so dedicated. with the experience that i have i should have a work by now. but no. no one is accepting my application the moment they find out that i resign due to what happened. why is this happening to me? why no one is helping me. i am drowning i am exhausting i am tired
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