I do this campaign because I am a mom

Hi, how is everyone? Actually I don't know how to start. My name is Venus Bautista and I am 30 years old. I am a mom of a 2 years old boy, and a teacher here in the Philippines. Actually at first life was okay. I could help my family back then and send my siblings to school, but everything changed when I got married. At the beginning of the marriage, everything was okay. Suddenly, he changed. He started doing things which was so different. He was diagnosed with depression and because of that, he was always sad and blame me for everything that was happening to him. I tried my best to keep him and make him realize at I was there no matter what but that wasn't the case. Few days after I gave birth to my son, he left me alone in the house, then he basically done it too many times after few years. I still kept him and tried to make our family complete. Then he started gambling, that was really the beginning of my nightmare. He usually took my phone when I was sleeping at night and do his thing while I was sleeping and in the morning when I woke up almost each day, I got notifications that he had loans online which I paid for too many times. He had loans to too many apps, how many, how much and how many times, I can't count and the loan was all under my name. I paid, and I paid and I paid, but he just continued his habit. I asked him to stop gambling and stop taking loans but he didn't listen. I was teaching and at the same time I was selling foods to the school where I am teaching to have extra income. I begged him to stop his habit for too many times but he didn't listen. Because of too much stress I had miscarriages for 3 times in a row after giving birth to my son. Last April, I committed suicide, I was so depressed. I didn't know what to do and how I can pay all these loans. I was lucky I was rushed into the hospital and after some tests I was still okay. Now, we are separated already. I am with my boy and trying and making my best to be alive. I am still depressed but I am doing my best for my son. This is my last option. My last resource. To ask for help here. I don't want to repeat my unecessary action I did last April. I know it's a sin and I know it will not make things better. Please help me build a better life for my baby and I will use this opportunity to do better. Someday when I will be better and situation will be better, I will return all the help by helping people too Please give me a chance to do better. I still want to be with my son and guide him to this life. Any help and any amount would be a big help for me and my Mosiah. Thank you in advance.