Hello everyone, my name is Tina and i am 12 yrs, this is my story.
It all started on 2020 where it all started, it was during pandemic and my mom and my dad lost their job because of the covid, and since then we've been struggling financially and we have to sell my phone, since then ive been doing nothing but watching tv all day, we were so poor that my parents and my older sibling had to eat nothing, there was one time my dad came home really drunk, me and my siblings and my mother was so traumatized in that night, but it all passed and we moved out.
We moved somewhere close at my grandmother's house and it was 2021, this year was the most traumatizing of all time.. my dad and my mom got in a fighy to the point where they started to threaten to k!ll eachother.. infront of their 4 children. In that whole night my mother and me and my siblings was crying and my mother kept packing our things, we were going to leave the house and our father, my father cut off our internet cable but luckily my mother had enough data to text our grandmother, my mom finished packing all of our clothes and we headed to the door, but our father stopped us, my father said that he waa going to destroy all of our things in our house, including our tv, tables, plates, refrigerator and more, we stayed the whole night in our house because we had no choice. But in the morning we were woken up by our grandmother with police, everything escalated so fast. The police took care of everything and they drove us to my auntie's house, we stayed there for a few months untik we get a new home. We were so traumatized, i mostly spend nights crying myself to sleep, i was 11 years old.
But we got a new place, me and my older brother my mom goes back to our old house to get the few things we need to get, i missed my dearly father so much even though he traumatized me so much. I cant take it and i ran to my father to hug him, i felt so much happiness that time, my father and my mother is doing alright now, they forgave eachother and we spent the whole thing trying to be stable.
It was now 2022, pandemic is over and school is back on, i am now 12 years old and me and my 2 siblings are sharing on a mini ipad 2, it was hard because i had to do so many works and so do my other 2 sibling, but we got thru it and on 2022 december, i got an iphone 7 that is almost defective, but i indured it and used it as far as i can, but it broke on 2023 february and i have to go back to my old lifestyle, and on may i was having my lowest point. I tried to unalive myself by drinking pills, and i was sl1cing my wrist every day, i cry everyday, i wondered what did i do to deserve this?? it was on middle of may when my brother got into a motorcycle accident, he hit a teacher and caused a fracture, my mother was desperately begging the brother of the teacher to not put my brother on jail, she begged and begged and begged, my mother is on the hospital that whole day which no one was watching over us, my mother had no choice but to call our father, my father took care of us the whole until my mother and my brother come back, when my mother came home, we yelled at me because i left the house earlier, i was suffocating in my own home, my thoughts was fulled of things, i had to take walk to get some fresh air and to clear my thoughts, i was so miserable. I was only 12 when i was experiencing that, everyday was like living hell to us, everyday, i wake up to my mother crying because she was begging everyone to lend her some money to give to the hospital, we were all miserable in that point, but many people helped us go thru it, my family members lended us some money to give and soon everything passed on, but ever since 2022, i was depressed and i was not aware, i felt so empty everyday, i was always thinking i was useless, worthless, ugly. To be honest i had no plans living, i had no dreams to chase, i was only existing, i didnt feel living.
On july 10, i graduated grade 6, and its now july 12, i have a school recognition on july 14 and i was supposed to take a guardian to my closing party but my mother said we dont have enough money to go, we also need food to give to my classroom but i dont think we can afford anything like that
Me and my 3 siblings need school supply by the end of the month, please help us!:)
- I amm also improving my mental health by talking to my friends online, but my time is temporary since im not using own phone, i am only using my dad's phone, which he will also take back soon, please help me, i am begging for everyones help, please spread this. Thank you everyone!!<3
