For my only daughter who passed away ?

Hi everyone,im jorris g apostol a single mom of a boy and girl..im 35 yrs old..i was an ofw for 6 yrs i worked in hongkong but because of pandemic i lost my job last 2020 so i decided to go home..when i gave birth to my kids 2005 i was diagnosed of diabetes and rheumatic heart disease..but it doesnt stop me to strive for my kids future..unfortunately when my daughter was 10 yrs old she was also diagnosed of diabetes..when i came back home to phillipines i decided to live with my partner and after 17 yrs i decided to get pregnant hoping that everything will be ok..i gave birth nov 17 2022 with a a premature 35wks old baby..we stayed in a seperate ward because he needs to stay un nicu and i was at the ob ward..as days goes by my health is getting worst so i wasnt able to seen my baby nor hold him once because i was at the icu because they need to intubate me because im suffering from many complications..i was about a wk in icu when they released me..id asked about my son and i noticed my family is hiding something from me..so i told them what happened so they told me may son passed away already and they buried him without me knowing ??..i stayed in the hospital for a month..i thought it was the worst days of my life..when they discharged me i noticed in having panick attack and anxiety..when im alone i feel nervous anxious im crying and i feel dizzy i cant breath..my daughter who is always by myside she calms me..whenever i have pannick attacks i call her and she will leave school because i need her..theb last wk april 2023 came, she had a fever i thought it was just a normal fever because shes not telling me what she trully feels..april 27 she had fever then by april 29 shes complaining of hard breathing so i sent her to the hospital and we found out she has DKA..a diabetes complication..april 29 night time she stopped urinating and she was in coma before i decided to intubate her..but with all the doctors trying to save her april 30 i lost my only daughter ? the daughter who keeps me alive and strive more so that we can survive everyday..my daughter will be graduating this july shes in grade 12 and she will have her 18 bday on aug so it hurts more thinking she wont br able to experience those..me myself struggling everyday how to get by because i am sick and i need to take medicine which i can afford..i also need an eye operation for my operation because of diabetes complication or else i will go blind ? i need to pay for the expenses pf my daughter burial..so to all of you who takes time to read my story thank you so much..i hope you could help me to survive for now..god bless to everyone and thank u so much ????